Regrets

Many of us have done things we are not proud of. Things we wish we hadn’t done, things we think of throughout the course of our lives and think, "I should have done this" or "Damnit, I was such an idiot". But eventually, like Liz Gilbert, there comes a time when you just have to let the damn thing go. You can’t change what’s happened, and you can try all you like to make amends for your terrible, terrible mistakes, but that will not change the fact that you did them. And you chose to do them, for one reason or another, and you have to accept that. Once you realise that yes, you did do something that might have been stupid, something hurtful or harmful or terrible, but it happened, and all the consequences that ensued happened too. And once you internalise that knowledge, the action and all it caused is dissolved in the overwhelming flood of love and forgiveness and freedom.

Some day, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, I’m going to forgive myself for everything I’ve ever done to harm myself and others. And I hope you can forgive me too, and may our scarred and damaged relationships be healed from that mutual forgiveness, and we go on being the best of friends again. Whoever it is I’m talking to, good luck my friend.

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Gramps

Does anyone remember Captain Planet? Well I do. And I was talking to Jordan and Aaron at work today, a pair of 15-year-olds, and they’d never seen Captain Planet before. And I was devastated. I could not imagine a childhood without everyone uniting in their love for Captain Planet. And it made me feel old. Like, really old. As in, I’m no longer a teenager, I can’t associate with the youngen’s anymore. A party I went to a few months ago had a few people dressed up as Planeteers, and everyone there got it and admired their ingenuity. But if Jordan and Aaron had been there, they would have been confused, like I would have been if I’d been with my parents at a party and they started talking about whatever ‘ancient’ crap it was they used to watch. And that parellel shocks me, because I’m those parents, and pretty soon I’ll be sitting on a rocking chair and telling stories about the good old days when five kids could combine their powers to make Captain Planet.

*sigh*

Is this what it means to get old?

101 in 1001 bump

Just thought I’d bump this again to let y’all know how I’m going. Quite well, I think! 56 down, 45 to go. I have a little under two years to complete the rest of it, so things are looking all right!


Basically completely stolen from Lee’s blog,
the idea is that 101 tasks should be completed in 1001 days, or ~2.75
years. The goals don’t have to be impossible (they have to be doable),
but they do need to be completed. Lee had a great idea, which I will
also jip, and for every task undone, I will donate $5 to charity. Tasks
I have yet to do are in bold. The list begins henceforth.

1. Sponsor a child.
2. Offer to buy a homeless person a meal without being asked.
3. Do 10 chin-ups.
4. Read a non-fiction book.
5. Get a job.
6. Meditate every day for a week.
7. Draw a picture.
8. Go for 40 hours without eating.
9. Watch all the Lord of the Rings films in a row.
10. Write a letter to someone I’ve never met in person.
11. Go to an art gallery.
12. Go to a museum (wax or otherwise).
13. Not talk to anyone for a whole day.
14. Have a real sword fight.
15. Hug a stranger.
16. Get into uni.
17. Visit a Buddhist temple.
18. Go on an Edmund Rice Camps for Kids WA camp.
19. Give $300 or more to India.
20. Go rock climbing.
21. Take a massage course.
22. Pass four of the Zelda games.
23. Campaign/protest/rally against something.
24. Dress-up for some reason.
25. Attend a yoga or tai chi class.
26. Sit in the city and write stories about interesting people.
27. Start weight training.
28. Have a drum lesson.
29. Climb in through a window rather than use the door.
30. Play laser tag.
31. Celebrate Day of the Ninja.
32. Look at all the new deviations on my deviantART account.
33. Watch at least three episodes of "24".
34. Go to the movies by myself.
35. Learn first aid.
36. Watch a documentary.
37. Get drunk.
38. Spend a whole day in the library, from the hour it opens to the hour it closes.
39. Buy a work of art.
40. Become an official member of Amnesty International.
41. Go to a real party.
42. Go to the zoo. Pay homage to the penguins.
43. Get my P’s.
44. Have my tarot read.
45. Take someone out to lunch.
46. Make something out of a cookbook.
47. Hold a hand stand for 5 seconds.
48. Join aikido.
49. Visit Katie’s house.
50. Pass Final Fantasy X.
51. Pass every song on Guitar Hero III, all difficulties.
52. Eat a whole apple, even the core.
53. Watch at least three new animes.
54. Help an old lady carry her shopping/cross the street.
55. Hug a male.
56. Re-learn all the Hiragana characters.
57. Learn Morse Code.
58. Play a game of poker.
59. Get "Age: 20" 100 times in the Wii Fitness Test.
60. Catch a train to somewhere I’ve never been.
61. Ride a horse.
62. Taste Dr. Pepper.
63. Solve a rubics cube.
64. Complete a jigsaw puzzle.
65. Make a shirt.
66. Go to a play.
67. Try archery.
68. Run up a downwards escalator.
69. Give someone a bouquet.
70. Try a dessert I’ve never heard of before.
71. Release an arrow from its bow.
72.
Learn the language Al Bhed.
73. Wear contact lenses.
74. Learn 100 new words.
75. Get a pet dog or rabbit.
76. Punch someone in the face.
77. Learn calligraphy.
78. Give a waiter/waitress a tip.
79. Learn to cook
80. Sit an IQ test.
81. Go ice skating.
82. Join a gym.
83. Officially start learning another language.
84. Go overseas.
85. Ride a bike to the city (or somewhere equally painful).
86. Cosplay for an anime convention.
87. Walk somewhere that takes more than an hour (on foot) to reach.
88. Buy a CD from a busker.
89. Do a front flip or barrel roll.
90. Sit down in a park to read a book or write a story.
91. Donate blood.
92. Enter a competition.
93. Write on every single page of my 2007 diary.
94. Get a zippo lighter.
95. Attempt to drink an egg.
96. Read a magazine from cover to cover.
97. Ride a roller coaster.
98. Buy a doll from Oxfam.
99. Take swimming lessons.
100. Finish reading the rest of the Rurouni Kenshin manga.
101. Go to Scitech.

I
tell ya, it took me half an hour to come up with the last ten. It
really gets hard towards the end there. Anyways, if anyone can help in
any way, I’d appreciate it. Once again, kudos to Lee for the idea. My
101 in 1001 begins on the 10th of December, 2007, and will conclude on
the 28th of September, 2010. Wish me luck.

EDIT: 68 has been changed from "Get a boxing bag" to "Run up a downwards escalator".
EDIT: 25 has been changed from "Go to a real party" to "Attend a yoga or tai chi class".
EDIT: 101 has been changed from "Do the splits" to "Go to Scitech".
EDIT: 73 has been changed from "Get contact lenses" to "Wear contact lenses".
EDIT: 41 has been changed from "Throw a shuriken" to "Go to a real party".
EDIT: 98 has been changed from "Pay back all my financial debts" to "Buy a doll from Oxfam".
EDIT: 66 has been changed from "Voluntarily go to some kind of performance (eg. circus, concert, play etc.)" to "Go to a play".
EDIT:
51 has been changed from "Pass every song on Guitar Hero III, all
difficulties" to "Pass every song on Guitar Hero III, Hard Mode".
EDIT:
40 has been changed from "Get a state alchemist’s pocketwatch (from
Fullmetal Alchemist)." to "Become an official member of Amnesty
International."
EDIT: 80 has been changed from "Write a play" to "Create a postal stamp".
EDIT: 35 has been changed from "Read all of Sunshine’s blog" to "Learn first aid".
EDIT: 31 has been changed from "Celebrate the International Day of the Ninja" to "Celebrate Day of the Ninja".
EDIT: 80 has been changed from "Create a postal stamp" to "Sit an IQ test".
EDIT: 21 has been changed from "Obtain all the Animorph books" to "Take a massage course".
EDIT: 99 has been changed from "Touch a celebrity" to "Take swimming lessons".
EDIT: 82 has been changed from "Sleep outside (preferably under a bridge)" to "Join a gym".
EDIT: 71 has been changed from "Learn to juggle bowling pins/knives/flaming torches" to "Release an arrow from its bow".
EDIT: 79 has been changed from "Go to a shooting range" to "Learn to cook".
EDIT: 85 has been changed from "Use only chopsticks for every meal for
three days" to "Ride a bike to the city (or somewhere equally painful)".
EDIT: 14 has been changed from "Have a real sword fight with bokken or shinnai" to "Have a real sword fight".
EDIT: 83 has been changed from "Wear a cape/cloak for an hour or more" to "Officially start learning a new language".