I spent an awful long time on Wikipedia yesterday reading up about psychological/mental sort of conditions, and I was ecstatic to see that someone out there understood me. Below are two lists that make me feel comfortable with myself as a person because I’m not the only one.
Signs of Obsessive-compulsive disorder
- Repeated hand-washing, requiring liquid soap when at all possible.
- Specific counting systems- arranging objects in even numbered groups.
- Perfectly aligning objects at complete, absolute right-angles, or aligning objects perfectly parallel.
- Fear of acting out on violent or aggressive impulses, or feeling overly responsible for the safety of others.
- Fear of contamination. (Refusal to touch something that is potentially dirty, and therefore, dangerous.)
- A need for both sides of the body to feel even. Stepping on a crack with my left foot means that I have to step on a crack with my right foot. If I accidentally knock my left foot against an object, I must knock my right foot against something too.
- When something is twisted one rotation in one direction, it must be twisted back exactly one rotation in the opposite direction. Eg. locks, pen lids.
- Every pen that I use must have its lid aligned with the writing on the body.
- All CD’s must be right way up in their cases.
- Repetitive behaviour that I am driven to perform in response to an obsession, with rules that must be applied rigidly and without exception. Examples: Using exactly the same model of pen and type of paper to write on.
- Unnatural fondness for symmetry and patterns rather than random disorder.
- Always resetting things to ‘neutral’ after their use. Example: After doing things in my room, everything must be put back exactly where it came from.
- The recognition that my urges and impulses for the above are not entirely rational, merely products of my own mind rather than based on reality.
Signs of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder
- Preoccupation with details, rules, lists, order, organization, or
schedules to the extent that the major point of the activity is lost.
- Showing perfectionism that interferes with task completion (e.g., is
unable to complete a project because his or her own overly strict
standards are not met).
- Excessive devotion to work and productivity to the exclusion of leisure activities and friendships. (I would rather finish unloading my cage than take a break with everyone else.)
- Inability to discard worn-out or worthless objects even when they have no sentimental value.
- Reluctance to delegate (give) tasks or to work with others unless they submit to exactly my of doing things.
- Hoarding money in case of future emergencies.
- Urge for perfection to the smallest detail.
- Rigidity and stubbornness.
I’m sure there are more that I can’t think of right now, but those are the lists so far.