Another Installment

This morning, I heard Auntie Jo (Ivy’s Mum) talking to her little (11yo) brother, Jun. Hau, Ivy’s 23-year-old brother, was sitting at the table with them looking at Jun. Just from observing the scene I could tell there was tension and pressure.
 
Jun wanted to go to Evergreen, a not-so-decent secondary school. Her mother wanted him to study harder to get a better education. I could tell he wasn’t all that enthusiastic about studying. I reflected momentarily, thinking that it was probably better if Jun, even against his will, got a good education because he was too young to realise the importance of it. Then, I realised the same applied for me. Whether I want to or not, getting good grades in high school will probably be important for my future, and I should strive for a good future rather than a good present.
 
Meanwhile, I have an open question that I would like your opinion on. Everyone’s opinion. The question is:
 
Should I get an earring?
 
I think it would be cool. I wouldn’t do it for other’s to think I’m cool, I would do it because it would make me feel cool. I don’t know why it’s a good thing to feel cool, but I would like to. If not, well, I’ve lived 15 years without one (though I have considered it during those years) and can live life without it. Mum will probably say no anyway, but firstly, what are your opinions?

An update

This place needed an update, so I just thought I’d say that I met Solomon today. He is a nice guy, truly. I admire and respect him. I wish him luck in whatever ventures the future holds.

 

I must play Tactics Arena Online, or some other mindless game. Perhaps chess with myself.

 

Xin, out.

End of Year Reflection

It occured to me just yesterday that, in being so wrapped with Singapore, I had forgotten something.
 
I am no longer a Year 10. Unless by some freak chance I fail all my exams and they hold me back. Still, I must reflect on my progress nonetheless, depending on what progress it defined as. I’ll just say how far I’ve come since Year 9.
 
This has been the greatest year of my life, it truly has been. And greater still, it’s not over yet. I might even be going to an anime convention called Wei Con in Murdoch once I return from Singapore. So much has happened that I’ve learned so much about. I was the happiest I have ever been this year, but had many a downfall too. This is the first time I have known what it means to be a teenager. I have been quixotic. I have been stupid. I have been brilliant. This is the year I shone, the year I felt I truly took a grasp on who I was in life. I took an enormous step to developing my self identity at age 15. I’m sure there’s much more to discover, but for now, I am content with where I stand in life.
 
Maturity comes too quickly. There is a certain age you are generally accepted to be immature until.  That is middle school. As soon as you hit Year 11, you’re in senior school, and you have to tone down the humour. I suppose it would be better without a lot of the fart jokes that go around, but at the same time, it’s sad to see the barriers of society saying you cannot act this way any longer, this is now how you must act. I love being this age, I love being who I am. I love expressing it with everything I do and everything I say. I love my life, and I love everything that’s part of it. Well, most everything anyway.
 
Singapore in 2 hours or so. I guess I had better do something productive with what’s left of my time. Mm… I’ll see you soon Ivy. <3
 
~Link of the Hylians

Because Ivy wanted me to.

1) Ppost 5 weird or random facts about yourself.

2) When you’re done, write 5 people’s name, people whom you want to do this quiz next, then leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

 

1. If I could live any one life, I would probably move to India and spend my days holding dying people, letting them know they’re loved.

2. If I could live a second life, it would probably be spent training in the mountains with Jack to become physically perfect, then becoming the greatest assassin alive.

3. I cannot stand the sight of myself brushing my teeth.

4. I… won’t say that one. Um… I dislike cheese.

5. If I could, I would take a loaded shotgun (the answer to all of life’s problems) and shoot Wallace [& Grommit] in the face. Blow that cheesy grin right off his head. Ugh.

 

In no particular order,

1. Siobhan

2. Richard

3. Chazwozzer

4. Wildflame

5. Lee

I just love these.

Put an x in front of the ones that you’ve have done
and sent to all your friends. Be honest!!!

(x) skipped school:
( ) seen/heard someone die in real life:
(x) been dumped:
(x) shoplifted:
(x) been in a fist fight:
(x – just to the back yard to look at the stars though. It was 4am) snuck out of your parent’s house:
(x) Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back:
( ) gone on a blind date
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane:
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(?) been moshing at a concert:
(x) taken painkillers:
(x) love someone or miss someone right now:
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by:
( ) made a snow angel:
(x) had a tea party:
(x) built a sand castle:
(x) gone puddle jumping:
(x) played dress ups:
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves:
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game:
(x) been lonely:
(x) fallen asleep at school:
(x) watched the sun set:
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake:
(x – under a tent anyway) slept beneath the stars:
(x) been tickled:
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood:
(x) petted a goat
(x) won a contest:
(x) had a parent run a red light:
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces: 
(x) felt like an outcast:
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) hated the way you look:
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) squished barefoot through the mud:
(x) been lost:
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean:
(x) played cops and robbers: 
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers: 
(x) sung karaoke: (I was tricked into it- but fortunately half the class was up there too. Dancing Queen… *shudders*)
(x) paid for a meal with only coins:
(x) made prank phone calls:
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain:
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus:
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about: 
(x) blown bubbles:
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating/ rollerblading:
(x) had a wish come true:
(x) worn pearls:
( ) ate dog/cat food
(x) sang in the shower: 
( ) have a little black dress:
( ) had a dream that you married someone:
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) been a cheerleader: (kinda)
(x) sat on a roof top:
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs: 
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel: 
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night:
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree:
(x) climbed a tree:
(x) had a tree house:
(x) are scared too watch scary movies alone: 
(x) believed in ghosts: 
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit just to see what others say: (not ugly, per se, just unusual. Red underpants forever and Age of Mythology shirts forever!)
( ) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on: 
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused: 
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly:
(x) laughed so hard you cried: 
(x) cried so hard you laughed:
(x) cheated on a test:
( ) have a Britney Spears CD:
(x) forgotten someone’s name:
( ) French braided someone’s hair:
(x) been to any other countries besides yours: 
( ) had serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas:
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger (I’ve been tempted)
( ) been arrested
(x) had alcohol
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator: 
(x) swore at your parents:
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts:
( ) gone naked just because
(x) been close to love:
(x) been to a casino
( ) skinny-dipped:
(x) saw a therapist/counsellor:
(x) done the splits: 
(x) played spin the bottle: 
( ) gotten stitches: 
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone: 
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox:
( ) crashed into a friend’s car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
( ) been fired
(x) lied to a friend: 
(x) had a crush on a teacher:
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in New Orleans
(x) been to Europe
( ) Been to Africa
(x) Driven interstate
( ) Been Skiing/ snowbording
( ) Been to a moto-cross show: 
( ) lost a child
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn’t: 
( ) own an ipod
( ) own an mp3 player
(XXX) fancy someone on your contact list:
(x) kissed a girl (not a relative)
(x) kissed a boy (not a relative)
( ) fainted
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) questioned your heart:
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes:
(x) cried yourself to sleep:
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn’t:
( ) jumped off a bridge into a river:
( ) kissed a mirror:
( ) been told you’re hot by a complete stranger: (I did do the opposite, though. Cute guy at the chocolate shop. Shibi likes him.)

This was just irresistable.

Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one…
 
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6 Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Holding a newborn baby.
19.Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams. !
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Balance

I don’t know enough about Taoism to call myself one, but from my limited knowledge, I have surmised that it is possible for one to find complete and total harmony in one’s self. There is always negative qi hidden in your mind, and you can express it when you feel the need to, but there is positive qi there too. Like any situation can be seen in good or bad light, the two exist, but it depends on which one you want to see. At any rate, meditation has become increasingly difficult for me lately. It’s hard to focus and balance the two, seeing as whenever I meditate it is to calm my negative side.
 
Hm… I need to work on this.
 
As a side note, Singapore in a week! Heaven help me, God bless you all.